The day after tommorow will be a significant day of my life. It will be a day of reckoning, a day where the heavens roar and blood pours and thunder bellows from the crimson streaked skies. It will be an hour where the people raise their fists to the clouds, tearing their robes and beating their chests.
Like King Kong. hahahahahah ahem. but seriously, it'll be a day where life starts.
So what's gonna happen on Fri 23rd? :) I'll be saying my goodbyes. heh. Time to bid thee farewell. By the end of the day I would have lost something that has made me..well me. And for the next few days after, I won't be able to go for band, can't play my Saxophone. Because the pain of seperation stabs like a rust-edged blade.A pain..akin to that of an operation! hahahah what were ya'll thinkin eh??:)
okaay that sort of bordered on hysteria, but it's true..i'll be going for an operation on friday. Heh I've only told one person bout this so far, maybe because I'm kinda lazy to announce it? and probably because it's quite a sensitive issue for me. So i'll write it on this site(haha sho smart.) So yep, i'll be going to the National Skin Centre on friday for mole excision. <---- There I said it. In bold. Personally it's not something I'm particularly elated bout, because it sorta reminds me about my blemishes, but c'mon let's go do this.
So i've gotten used to it already, even after the teasing in pri sch and all, and to be honest, it dosen't really affect me much now? But still, when I look at the mirror, bypassing the hot guy staring back at me,*hahahah kidding la =D* I see the stupid solid ink drops on my face. And I think to myself, besides what a wonderful world, like if I didn't have these blemishes would I be more accepted in society? Or would I have more confeedents in myself? Or mumbo jumbo like that. Good friends of mine throughout the years have told me appearances don't matter, and I can testify to the fact that what's most important is the inside......BUT still I think this is a decision that I want to make. I did an excision around ten years ago for one, and I think only milton knows, coz I've known the cool dude for 12 years now.. and yea after that op I asked my mom starry eyed " Can we get rid of all now?" The doctor said "when you're fourteen.'' And I guess throughout the years it was a combination of me forgetting bout the op at 14, the doctor that was supposed to do the op becoming the late doctor that never did the op, or that I just got used to my face having those marks that cannot be wiped away.
Nevertheless, my mom found a doctor that would do the op for me. And so it goes. :) It's not a matter of vanity I jest, but I would like to find out myself if removing the blemishes on my face would help my self esteems. And I think I know the answer to that. Oh and if you think I should not go for the op, just tag and let me know (like it makes a difference.haha) OH before I forget, the op's just gonna be removin the two most unsightly ones at the bottom of my face. Yeah one cannot be too greedy. And yep I think that this is the correct decision. I mean, I'm a softie inside. and my apperance has in fact caused me frustration before. Not now, because I know that Jesus loves me, and thats what matters punks. hahahah nah but seriously, I'm just doing this because I feel it's about time.
Maybe with the removal of these two banes would signify a new start to life. And yeah, I guess this can be another Perfunctory Matter, an event which will kickstart my 17 year old life back into high fieldity.
Gush. I think I'm right. And i'm looking foward to the op, although I can't go for band for two weeks as the stiches have to heal, and triple tonguing may cause triple ruptures.
I think I'm right. How about you?
oh oh oh and if you want mx you can come with me.. Coz it's buy 5 get one free!
aieesh.
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KENNETH
Name:Slumber
Born:16th August
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