I feel the June holidays are coming to an end. Which is a little peculiar, seeing the obvious that they haven't even began. And yet in these three days following school's closure I am wrought with the same sinking, guilty feeling I usually get at the end of June where deadlines should have been met and I just shrug and say there's still time la. I feel rather empty to be honest, and I'm not sure if that void can be filled with piling on myself copious amounts of trees that once were, and entrusting myself with the task of engraving my regurgitation on them with deep, black felt.
Brother Liow mentioned that in rife, women might get you down, circumstance might hand you a few curved balls, and well your existence might well be futile, but if your studies are up, then everything looks up in turn. I can't really empathize with that, since I have never needed to crane my neck to look up at my results, but he might be right. I'm doing well, on average, which isn't that well after all. I'm getting my 6s in my HLs and French, and yet I know that if I don't do enough revision this month, it might be choppy waters for me. Well can't really help that the rubrics for grading my Hls (B and M, Eng A1 and History) aren't set in stone, and Priya has been awfully kind with our French tests I feel, giving me 53/70 for repeating the same staid, unstable phrases that I am honestly quite disgusted at. Let's go beyond il/elle est shall we?
And well, my math and bio marks are like a goddamn sine curve. har har. It's just frustrating not being able to excel at these subjects which supposedly hand you your 7s on a gold platter. Again I hope(we all hope don't we) that this June will be productive. I've got IB TYS to do, and who knows I might come out all the wiser. and 180 degrees = pi in radians. Awesome, A math virgin.
So why this sudden peek into the crystal ball of academia? It's the hols for goodness sake, don't go all about like some education anaylst. But, I must go back to what my bro said. Women and circumstance might get you down, but study well, and all things will fall into place. Don't worry folks, I'm not turning sadistic and rafflesian, just that, maybe, just maybe I have to put on the thick, horn rimmed glasses instead of the rose tinted shades and, you know, try to make some semblence of an effort to actually be serious, at what I'm supposed to be serious about during this season of my existence.
but to be honest,who am I kidding? sigh.
Delivered at 8:07 PM;
KENNETH
Name:Slumber
Born:16th August
FANCIES
Him.K.anglo-chinese.music for the passionate.marvel.gunners.
Orange.debate.
long bus rides armed with an eye and a pod.74.
philosophizing.dystopia.
coffee.Rove.Health.Famary.
Buddies.
writing.1984.
expression.Italian food.
journeys.teh-peng.
stream of consciousness.
witty play on words.musing.
accents.the heartrands.performing.
being a closet connossieur.
a point of view.vigorous
interaction with spherical objects.
irony&pathos.yum.
JS.spirit.a girl that would smile
