Jingle Bells!

Jingle Bells!

Jingle All the Way!

Oh what fun it is to enlist

because I can be Pes A!



Anyway, I've been thinking about God. Of recent times I've come to find Bible Thumpers, "believe or you're going to hell" types and people who don't practice what they preach, well pretty irksome. I know why I haven't been as 'on fire' as these types, especially in school, where I don't attempt to assert my beliefs for the simple reason that I don't think I'm a good representation of what it means to be a Christian, although I believe with all my heart that Jesus loves me, and I love Him too.

I don't think I'm right to lay off evangilizing, or not trying to be as Christlike as I know I should. It's called the great commission. But I don't know, I don't put Bible verses as my msn screen names, blog about theology per se etc etc because I do not relish appearing as someone with all the head knowledge and that's it. I abhor hypocrisy, much more from a Christian. I guess this is what alot of non-believers feel as well, or why people are put off by Christians in certain situations. It's as if we Christians percieve ourselves to be morally and ethically superior to non-believers so we can talk down to them and yet behave like the sinner we are at the same time. I think it's a privilege, it's the epitome of a deal too good to be true and instead of slamming non-believers with the consequences of unbelief and using fear and apprehension as coercive tactics, why can't we as believers translate the love and grace showered upon us to like love for our fellow man?


I guess I don't like Sunday Christians. As a believer myself I have come across too many Christians who raise their hands to the ceiling during worship but have attitudes akin to a raised finger. Personally, I don't proclaim my faith as much as I should, because I know my shortcomings. I know I'm no image of Christ, but that doesn't mean I'm not trying to be a better person. Still before my walk matches my talk, I don't see myself in a position to ya know, evangilize. Which is why all I ask from Christians, or those who profess to be Christians, is for them to at least attempt to practice what they preach, literally.


I want to be humble because I don't deserve an ounce of His Love. I think that's the main reason why I honestly have not been sharing the Gospel or behaving as I should. It's hard to explain, hence my short, punctuated and stuttering sentences. I don't think I have to explain myself further. I just feel indebted to God to try to be a better person and well there's this song called Keeper and Sustainer of My Life by Dennis Jernigan I found from an old and dusty CD in my drawer just a while ago, which helped me get over some doubts and hopefully it will comfort anyone who sees this. No strings attached. No Bible thumped.

God Bless. I need to go think.




You are light in the darkness
Shelter from the storm
You are a shepard
Who will guide me
You are joy to all who mourn

You are bread of life that fills me
Living water when I'm dry
You are the keeper and sustainer of my life

Without your life
I know there is no life
For I was dead in sin
And You gave life to me

Without your life
I'd surely rather die
Lord Jesus live your life
through me

You are bread of life that fills me