http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rc8C0oKXbWk
Royston Tan's 15. Yeah the whole thing's on youtube, sadly enough. I wanted to buy it the other time, but I was underaged then...ah never mind. Anyway this section (Part 4) is particularly poignant, and I don't know, I'd like to say that it stirs up mixed feelings within about role reversals, and my identity as a chaoangmohkia, but well, it doesn't do the movie justice to critique it like a chaoangmohkia. And I'd post the actual clip, but nah. wait till other chaoangmohkias don't like. (:
Anyway just a heads up la it's a little violent and vulgar, but we're all mature enough I hope, and it's pretty chastising.. Actually, I feel pretty inept, and pretentious writing here. It's a real no other city moment, if you know what I mean..deep singaporean poetry that don't tackle the heart of the matter. Sigh. the whole don't know who's right feeling. mmm.
Just wanna say how proud I am of the Anglo-Chinese School (Independent) A Div Rugby and Tennis Teams. Obviously losing sucks, I know that sinking feeling all too well. But still that was one hella fight you put up, and the AC Spirit that rose up into the air from the pitch was immense. Nothing comes close.
Hope the supporters helped. All 30 of them in the front two rows. What I don't get, is how people can sit there being nonchalant, as if they're in a damn lecture, giggling, scratching, perfecting the art of looking bored, while ACS is fighting their hearts out on the pitch. And I don't get how you bermuda-clad children can don the yellow jersey and yet behave like primary school kids on their first excursion to the zoo. Whatever happened to supporting your damn seniors? You don't deserve to wear that shirt, really.
Now who's asking you to bawl like a baby when we lose, or mope around as if your entire detached world came crumbling down. All that is needed, is support. Look RJ's council is probably bigger than our entire cohort already, hence the last thing we need is ambivalence and apathy from ACSians who were called down to rally our teams on the pitch and on the courts to success. I'd rather you not be there than sitting there looking listless. I don't even understand rugby as much as I do other sports. But it's not about rugby, it's not so much about the individuals playing, although having your close friends play makes the event even more significant. The only thing that matters, to me, is that ACS (Independent) is out there sweating blood and we, on the sidelines have a duty to carry our school. It's ok if we don't win, but at least we could say we stood up to be counted and roused our comrades on the pitch.
Anyway you probably won't understand what I'm saying if you don't have it already. And if you're rollling your eyes, thinking that I am a crazed zealot who's getting all emotional and restless all over a mere school cup final which I'm not even a part of, then there's really not much to be said after all. The Year Sixes on the first and second row, especially those who came to the front to cheer, were awesome. And is it a coincidence that most of us down there were JS men? There's something imbued within us, as in the Year Sixes that actually cared, that I felt manifested itself louder than anything ra ra ra rafffles could ever do.
Too bad apathy was the only winner in the stands of the red blue gold that day.
This is my life
It's not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I’d never lived before
Somebody shake me
Cause I, I must be sleeping.
It's 1.30am. I have to get up and get to Darren's house in four and a half hours. I like the lyrics of this song.
"I'm very proud of my players. Normally when a team has a lot of success and loses a championship it's lack of motivation, not the same spirit or ambition, but it was exactly the opposite. My team was brilliant.'' - Jose Mourinho
Over the past couple of days on the back of man yoo gaining back the EPL title, I've developed a grudging respect for Jose Mourinho, stemming from his public display of recognition, approval and solidarity towards his team at the end of the match against Arsenal. Chin up, his body language intoned. It may have been wonderful PR or a subtle attempt to keep his job, but his reaction to failure and adversity is, sigh admittedly admirable, I alliterate.
So then I wonder, what defines failure? Inability to obtain set objectives or aspirations? Loss of self belief? Wrong ideas? Wrong methods? Being unable to adapt or change circumstance? I don't know, ask wiki lor.We can recognize the feeling of failure, the gnawing dull pang in the stomach and chest, but it's hard to distinctinly describe. I have an idea though, that failure is not judged, or decided by the end result, but rather by the processes and attitudes that were invested and like, the lousy test score, absence of a championship medal, the gold award in syf are all but mere manifestations of the knowledge that more effort, more work could have been put in and change the status quo.
Sigh, on a weak where I'm so physically and emotionally drained that they should name a reservoir after me, and stab me after for cracking stupid jokes, I've realized how closely linked failure and regret is. In fact, the feeling of failure's but another word for regret. We say we fail because we could have, we should have, we would have done better if we only...etc etc etc. It's a very simtia feeling because you know you could have got what you desired, you know you had the potential, but the lack of propensity to work for what you want ruined everything.
Mourinho dosen't think Chelsea failed. Sure, he goes on to state excuses such as "We had a big problem only to play all season only with (Ricardo) Carvalho at centre-half", but strikingly goes on to say "but now is not the moment to talk about that." soon after. Hell this dude realized that his team had gave 100%. Their 100% may not have been enough this season, but does it mean Chelsea has to wallow in not only wades of cash and oil, but self pity as well?
Niet! (warning: bandie gone wild)
If we gave our all during practice, watched Dr Lee microscopically, for a lack of a better term, perfected our intonation by never forgetting to bring a tuner or to listen out for each other, came for every practice punctually, refrained from saying dumb shit during combined, gave Dr Lee that utter, unadulterated concentration he so fully deserves...if we did ALL of this and More, and only got a dull, faded, and heart wrenching gold. I'll be disappointed, yes. I would scream refree kayu, yes. But I'd have no regrets. I wouldn't say we 'failed'. We would have done a Chelsea, who arguably fought to the end, all biasedness as a staunch Arsenal fan aside. If we did everything we could.
I think we're more like the Gunners though. On our day, our 100 % is better than anyone's 110. I sincerely believe with all my heart that if we actually took more shots outside the box, actually tried the hard and direct route of working the long and arduous ball and used our heads more often, we'd be world champions. We play beautifully, but our commitment and focus have to be present, or else all we have at the end is a souffle, to quote the great Mr. See, all form and no substance.
Gold With Honours
ain't coming to you on a silver platter. You can't simply pass your way into the top. 2 more days. Let's get our hands and mouths dirty and bloody do this. I sure as hell bid you stand, men of the west.
The Best Is Yet To Be.
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