Wow, I didn't know reading MSN message histories could be so painful. I thought the wounds had blossomed, were ephemeral, were washed down the river... But no, they're indestructable, constantly tugging at the heart going "There. You had it. She liked you. And you wasted it." That hurts, but maybe it's because I'm in love with the memories. Would I entertain the thought again? No. Over everything, over her I am already? Yes. So why do the old smileys, long replies and 'hahahahaha's hurt so bad?
Sometimes the numbing feeling causes itchiness and restlessness within and things are going downhill with me, quoting world lit like this.
Sigh. Carpe diem, kenneth.
Delivered at 1:37 AM;
KENNETH
Name:Slumber
Born:16th August
FANCIES
Him.K.anglo-chinese.music for the passionate.marvel.gunners.
Orange.debate.
long bus rides armed with an eye and a pod.74.
philosophizing.dystopia.
coffee.Rove.Health.Famary.
Buddies.
writing.1984.
expression.Italian food.
journeys.teh-peng.
stream of consciousness.
witty play on words.musing.
accents.the heartrands.performing.
being a closet connossieur.
a point of view.vigorous
interaction with spherical objects.
irony&pathos.yum.
JS.spirit.a girl that would smile